many many things happened for the past one month or so.. and make
me start to wonder and realise alot of things that i been missing out.
my life was basically peaceful for the past few month till that "woman"
appear out of nowhere and created a whole lots of trouble to my gang
of friends. this "woman" who gave me the impression that she
is always trying to hide her true self from others.she will try so hard
to fit into the gp ,act friendly act innocent like she is an angel but deep
down i think she is damn fug up especially when she is drunk.i am always
fugging sensitive to my frens around me.but yestersday,when our gang
have a gathering and she is there..i totally lost it.i din bother to look
friendly nor talk to her.i guess she realise that too.i totally dun care
that she is someone my friend is in love with now.i fuggin dun care
anymore.and even if she is befriending with all my good friends now,
i still not goin to talk to her.as long as she is in.i am out.i dun like her
is a fact and i dun like to wear a mask .
even though,it was sad to see the gp is spilting up.but all the recent
incidents make me look at ppl around me with a different perspective.
i know who are real friends who will stick to u.i knw who are friends
who just make use of u.i am not stupid.i am moving on.i wun grief
anymore over the fact that i have seen the true colours of ppl who
are close to me. i dun wan to talk abt it.i knw it within.
and from my sensei life experiences,she makes me feel that i should
feel fortunate with what i have now.2 dollars to me seems nothing.i
can spent it without thinking without feelin a pinch.but to somebody
else they will think for half hour ? one hour? a day ? to decide on
where should they spend the 2 dollars on?maybe i should really
cut down on my cabbing and stuff.hai....
i need to loosen up.feeling damn stress up lately.
continue soon...need to get some rest.bleh..tml morning flight.
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